Lots of stuff

Do you ever have one of those moments where it seems as if the whole world might be coming to an end? Or is it just me?

This morning I just felt like so many things were weighing down on me. I don't even think it was necessarily just about the things that I'm worrying about right now, but also just this emotional strain I was feeling.

I haven't blogged in a few days, primarily because of a computer problem we were having with our little macbook. We got her last year while we were in Thailand, and while I know I sound crazy, she has become a little lifeline for me during this year of staying at home every day. So, on Tuesday I was cruising along on the internet when all of a sudden she just froze up. 20 minutes later, when I still couldn't get response I finally just had to turn her off. And that was the end.

After talking to apple care over the phone and having no solution, we took her to the Apple store in OKC last night. They tried to fix her up, but to no avail. We lost our hard drive.

We got her about a year and a half ago when we were in Thailand. It was about halfway through our year there, so most everything we've done since then was done on her...including our pictures of our last half of the year in Thailand, as well as all of our pictures since we got back last July. Not to mention the documents we lost.

I'm so distraught over this. I keep telling myself that we still have the memories, but those pictures were just so important to me. We're going to check into data recovery, but we know that it is ultra expensive, so I'm not sure if it's going to be an option. We hadn't backed up anything. I am SO mad at myself for not backing anything up. I don't know what I was thinking. Maybe this post can help somebody else avoid the same ordeal. If you haven't backed up your computer recently...do it now!

One thing that I've really been trying to work on is eating because of emotional reasons. I've always heard that this is a huge issue for some people, but I never really thought I was one of those. I'm starting to find myself doing this more and more. I've come a long way I think as far as not seeing food/eating as moral issue. I've always had problems with getting angry at myself or feeling like I am so terrible if I eat something that I know isn't good for me. I've really tried to work on this over the last 6 months or so, and I definitely have gotten better. But I've noticed lately that when I get stressed or upset, I start to eat...and then I feel really bad (physically) afterward, and I feel so disappointed in myself. I had an episode of this yesterday. I felt so stressed and anxious about the computer issue and such, so I ate when I wasn't even hungry, which led to me feeling so disappointed this morning.

So, after about an hour of crying and feeling sorry for myself over everything that's going on, I had some breakfast and started cleaning the apartment. Of course doing something productive helped a lot, and then I had a great lunch of Pei Wei leftovers from last night. I had the Korean spicy dish with vegetables/tofu and brown rice. It was delicious! Afterwards, I still felt a bit hungry and wanted something sweet so I made a quick green monster. I have to share this one with you because I branched out a little with my ingredients, and it really payed off!
Ingredients:
1 kale leaf
handful of spinach
1 shot of Pom juice
3/4 of an orange
splash of almond milk
half a banana
ice

The citrus from the orange and the Pom juice made a great combo! I have always been hesitant to put juicy citrusy fruits in my green monsters, but I highly recommend it!

Anyway, sorry this has been a bit of a random post. So much has gone on this week and without being able to blog it was all a jumbled mess in my head! I'm off to make a card for a couple from our Sunday school class who just had their baby. We're taking them dinner tonight, and I can't wait to see little Maggie!

P.S. Last night we went through the pics on our Dell computer to see what we had put on here from Thailand, and there were more than we actually thought! I've decided that I'm going to start doing "Thailand Tuesdays." Every Tuesday I'll post a story, picture or just a little snippet about our time there. I think this will be a great way for me to document stories so I don't forget! I'll leave you with a few random ones that I hadn't looked at since we got back.

We had a camp for the students at the highest point in Thailand. This is J and I at a waterfall we hiked to. Beautiful!

Bamboo

Maya Bay, where the movie "The Beach" was filmed. This is the most beautiful place I've ever been, but sadly the picture doesn't do it justice.

Phi Phi Islands - J and I kayaked to this place, and I was so amazed.


We got to meet this little guy at Monkey Beach. Cute?....or scary? I say cute, J says scary:)

The college campus we worked at

Our home! The very middle one is ours

Tomorrow we have the longest run of our training - 20 miles. Wish me luck:) Hope everyone has a great start to the weekend!