So sad it's just wrong

Who all has seen the movie P.S. I Love You? For those of you who have, was anybody kind enough to warn you about how dismal the majority of this movie is or about how heavyhearted you would feel if you watched it?

Well, no one cared to warn me. I thought it was a sappy happy love story. And...during some parts it is, but there are the other parts...oh, I'd say about 85% of the movie that is just downright brutal. So, for everyone out there who hasn't yet seen this movie, this is your warning. You will cry like you've never cried before. At times you will ask yourself "why did I want to watch this movie?" However, if you're like me in any way, when it's over you will sniffle, wipe your eyes, and then get on your most convenient social network and add it to your faves.

Let me tell you about my first viewing of this movie. Jonathan and I's (someone please tell me if "I's" is a word. It seems okay to use verbally, but so wrong when you write it out) trip home from Thailand included a layover in Tokyo. So, because it fell so close to our 2 year anniv. of marital bliss, we decided to extend the layover by a couple of days and live it up in this fantastic city.

So, the last night we were in Tokyo, we decided to "officially" celebrate our big day. It was such a great evening. After hanging out on the busy streets-eating, walking, eating, checking out the pachinko places, and walking some more...we decided to head back to our lovely hotel to relax for the rest of the evening. By about midnight, we were super tired and ready to turn in for the night. So, like many other nights, we decided to start a movie that we had brought with us from Thailand. The lucky pick? P.S. I Love You.

So, we start watching it, and I got really into it right away. The beginning of this movie is intriguing. However, not intriguing enough for my husband, who is known for falling asleep during movies. So, as he slept soundly and peacefully beside me, I endured this movie alone and quietly. Until....one scene in which Hilary Swank meets up with her mother and she just cries and cries and talks about how, well I don't want to spoil it, but let's just say she has maybe the biggest breakdown of the whole movie. It was SOOO sad.

Suddenly I just couldn't hold in my sadness anymore. I burst into tears. And "burst" is not an exaggeration. I just could no longer contain the desolation I felt. Of course, my outburst of tears and sobbing woke Jon, who had just settled into that state of sleep which no one should have to come out of. He was so baffled and could not figure out what was wrong - I couldn't explain to him because I couldn't even get a breath in around my wailing! The longer and harder I cried, the harder he tried to comfort me. After about 4-5 full minutes of this crazy business, I began to get a little bit tickled amidst my anguish, which resulted in this outlandish combination of laughter and intense crying. I just began to realize how absurd it was that I was this upset over a movie at 2 o'clock in the morning, and Jon's efforts to comfort me even in his sleepy confusion became funnier and funnier. I just kept saying "I can't believe you left me!" over and over again. The poor boy.

After this went on for way too long, I finally began to calm my hysterics. I was so bushed from the late night (it was about 2am by now), the crying, the laughing etc. that I was finally able to fall asleep curled up tight against my poor husband.

I'm sorry that I have no explanation for why this movie is on my favorites list, but it is. I love it. It makes me appreciate my husband a hundred times over every time I watch it. Let's be honest, we never know what might happen in the future. I know I'm not the only wife who gets nauseated just thinking about what life would be like without our "one and only." This movie just really hit me hard...and I love it! The sad thing is that I scared Jonathan to death and now he won't even consider watching it with me. Everytime I suggest it, he basically acts like he doesn't hear me...it's pretty funny. One day I'll get the energy to force it upon him. Believe me, I'll make sure we watch it at a decent hour next time so I don't find myself having another lonely breakdown.

So, in closing, I would fully recommend this movie, but make sure to have a huge box of tissues and someone nearby, ready to comfort you at a moment's notice.